I had to adjust the brightness so the colours are a little off..



Me and the new addition to my flock! :D :D :D The two of them were chirping back and forth earlier, awh.

Kingston just passed away :( We noticed she was sitting on the bottom of her cage and falling over like she was drunk. We moved her onto a washcloth and moved her food and water close by and added some containers of warm water to her cage to keep her warm, but she was too sick. Another budgie owner said it sounds like she had a stroke maybe, but there's really no way of knowing at all.

My mom and I are both crying and sad and we're going to bury her later.



I love you baby girl and I'll miss you.

I'm sorry, but everybody I know irl is getting cut for at least the next little while. No hard feelings, but if people aren't interested in whats going on with me for the right reasons then I'm not going to keep pouring my heart out to them.

serenamina (im sure ive spelt that wrong now), john is doing a live broadcast and he showed the 1st edition looking for alaska that you gave him, mentioning you by name. I squee'd, as I am living vicariously through you, re: nerdfighters

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Kjiq77QHdEM

that was like two years ago and I am still in love with it
probably not the night to watch it though so you guys can and I'll save it here for later hahah.

today has been a bad day.
i woke up really early and couldnt sleep, been feeling gross and tired, and my back and chest are really sore today. I'm also really missing Josh today and feeling really down about that, so there's been a lot of crying and time spent in the fetal position. I had a cupcake for breakfast and I think I'll have one for lunch too, just because I can't make myself care enough to heat up leftover soup.

:(

This is really hard, I'm having a lot of second thoughts today and missing Josh really badly. I keep thinking... did I make the right decision? I got so upset with him for leaving me, and here I am leaving him. I miss him SO much and its hard to think that anything could be worse than this. I miss him, and everything about him, and our conversations and interactions and jokes... ugh I need to stop thinking about it or I'm going to end up breaking down and calling him right now. :\ fudgesicle :( 

Why can't I do glitter text in my lj entries? :( 




happy birthday to let_letitbe ! :) xoxox

I think it's my new medication thats making me so ridiculously hungry all the time. Its driving me crazy, I'm eating SO much lately. I'm also craving sugar really really bad again :( Starting tomorrow no more sugar for breakfast (as per my new years resolution that I'm not following so far). Its annoying but its also stressing me out because since I obviously can't really exercise that much I'm worried I'm going to get fat :(  I mean I know I'm a long way from 'fat' but when I put on a few pounds it looks very awkward because its very..concentrated. haha. :\ time to go eat another brownie! :\

if I die, survive me with such sheer force
that you waken the forces of the pallid and the cold
from south to south lift your indelible eyes
from sun to sun dream through your singing mouth.
I don't want your laughter or your steps to waver.
I don't want my heritage or joy to die.
don't call up my person. I am absent.
live in my absence as if in a house
absence is a house so vast,
that inside you will pass through its walls
and hang pictures on the air.
absence is a house too transparent
that I, lifeless, will see you, living,
and if you suffer, my love, I will die again.

(If I Die, Pablo Neruda)

Ohmygosh, I got my package from Addie today! I LOVE IT! I got a cute card, a beautiful scarf (its so awesome!), a book, and two gorgeous nail polishes (I almost bought the darker blue the other day, but then I was like... no, I'll wait. haha) thank you so much!!! :D

I just made a hot chocolate that was half milk and half half&half (because we ran out of milk) and it was sooo goood.

Today was super super great :) I'm totally sleepy though so you can hear about it tomorrow (I know you're all on the edge of your seats, obviously)

also keyboard = tomorrow?? maybe?

Oh and also : Puppy Cam!!!

The Yeti, obviously! ;)